a secret place to hideaway

I cant face another round. i just can’t. everything seems not right. Everything seems in mess.

As i close my eyes, i wish that i could find a place for me to hideaway. troubled days cloud my eyes and stole the sun from my skies. in this darkness i am tossing, turning. i just can’t find the right way. i just can’t find the source of light. im lying wide awake and hold my breath, i wish i was there. hurting myself never ends this feeling. i feel the pain but the feeling is still there.

im depressesed. i want to run away from here. drive all day and never look back. away from people that mess with me. away from all the pressure. i don't want these tears. these tears make me weak. these tears lead me to hurt myself.

pain, please go away along with all the guilt. i just want to disappear from here from the pathetic life that i've built. i'm in a place i don't want to be. im lost at what to do. i don't want to face the pain. i want to push it all aside. i don't want to act like this, but it's all i've been shown

i’ve always dreamt that i want to be somewhere that no one knows me. i’ve found the perfect place i've been looking for. A secret place for me to hideaway. Few hours from now, im gonna be there. i wont turning back.

i wish baby nado was here with me...